Sicko

still sick...
Also don't know why am i sick
Doc said that i m too stress
stress of what???

chilled out with @ this new place
V v quite... wondering how long can it survive
Wee hour.... ZZZZZzzz

Good Person vs conservative

Charge n energise after fainted for duno how long....
really scary... what if i never wake up.. or i faint n hit something....
think too much hor.....

Dad bought me porridge... entertain him so ate a few spoon... LS again..
force myself out of house... i need sun... feeling v v cold at home..
drove to NIE... feel not right... but guess there are many things to do distract me....

First day giving feedback to the class...
The LP erm erm... i duno m i that when i was a trainee

Supper... drink Nia... n guess what... home to LS again... really can slim down leh
anyway had a good conversation

Define "Good Person"
Accepting one's past???
conservative environment???

Have friend asking me how to know if a person is good or bad?
If that person can accept who you are, is that consider a good person?
Because we belong to a conservative society, people cannot accept your past?

All questions hit me straight...
But all this question had been running in my head for long...
now that i hear it from someone, i was like duh..... (thot i m the only stupid fool in this world...)

Anyway, don't really know what happen to my dear friend
Just pray hard that all storm will be over soon....
Pray that mine will be eased soon tooo
Life goes on... faith,trust n believe....

SICK

M really sick
Been not well since new year...
Keep on LS
ya soon i will reach my new year resolution (lost 3 kg) target 1 =) yippy

fainted at home guess due to dehydration...
cannot eat for weeks
heh heh....

went to see a doc finally
told me that i have not recovered from my race n need to rest
Give me MC so that i don't do sports (Koazzz... he duno my career meh)
took n thank you

Went hm n sleeeeeeepppp...
Miss the high tea (bias =))
end up eating plain porridge
gastric is killing me... i ate leh... but just duno why i keep LS n then my gastric kept squeezing
Please let me have a good new yr....
so no sports this week
be a good girl n rest....

What a news that shattered my day once again...
the scene just kept popping in my head...
WHY WHY WHY?????

Isn't i suppose to move forward? then why i slip back again?
ERRRRRRRRRRR

Frustrated is the word... nothing went right since last week... heh heh heh!!!!!

What a 'Pressie' for a start of the day.
An unexpected scene that killed me...
Happy scene, struggle me... swallow hard..
Died once again....

Reality hurts

So disappointed with myself once again... heh
.... =(

Confuse

Counting down...
Just hope everything will end soon.....

Eeeeek

Feeling v v shitty....
How can i ever feel this way.....
Is really not right but ......
??????

Heh m not me....
Losing my coolness...
Start to doubt
confident plunge
Lossing myself
everything just seemed so wrong
Really that bad????

SHIT!!!

Exam ended wor!!!
Terrible terrible terrible paper. Hope my paper got burn or lost during marking.
Happy??? ok lar.... dun feel much. Super tired.....

Went town for dinner. Meet up with the rest
GSS is onzzzzz....
too tired to shop... but someone do impress me!!! heh


Stupid enough to talk about brainless topic
many many ?????
Why?
sympathise n sorried about it....
super miserable n low.... knew it just going to hit me.

Big fat feet;
Super gross;
Stunned.... speechless.... DOC HOW???
never did i see a swell that is so bad.

Demoralise.... *Sign*
Hate the stupid clutches;
The cast is so irriating.....
Doggy kept blocking my way....

*Crack* n there goes my journey to Mt A

Thanks Da ge for sending me to hospital n Dan for running all the. errands. CC for sending me car back n keith to pick me up for the gathering... thanks for all the msg.... Well m glad to have good friends around.

Pain in both way;

Mana super low;

Time to face the truth;

Walking out of comfort zone;

"If this is a test that i have to go through, i am all ready to go through it"

Many many assignments to complete!!!
Been stressing up with my Acc n my math assignment.

Monday:
Training was really tough! 1:60 athletics... 3 teachers cannot make it
Thick skin enough to approach collegues for help.... lucky to have nice people ard....

Wed:
Working hard on my Acc assignment. Met Vic n Chris online to discuss project... Headache.. don't know where to start.... But still volunteer to do 1 major qns .... (Just want to get started)

Thursday;
Working on my aerobic mass workout. Gotton Music from CC. Long working hour.. Home to stress with my Acc again... tomolo must showcase somework wor!!!

Firday;
Class... discuss about project... little agruement about solution... sort out..=)
Went Borders after class... So many late nite people wor!! 25% off good deal....
Supper
Zzzzzz

Sat:
Real busy day;
Went Bday PArty
Queensway to buy badminton rackets
Went to meet ........
Cell
Dinner
Home
Happy to complete my Math Quiz

Tomorrow is Sunday!!!!
Sabbath

Wee Wee Hours ....

2 assignments due by 2359 6/4

in front of me comp since 3pm...

So much more to go ....

Not in the mood to work;

Eyes giving me problem;

Understand the difficulty of poor vision;

Specky the whole day....

Tired and teary eyes....

Went doc in the morning,

Hopping to get the jab and settled;

End up no jab cos still fever;

More packets of 'sweets';

What a week to end with!!!

I NEED TO BE IN SCHOOL BY MONDAY PLS!!!!

Pozzo ancora una volta, sono stato ricordato a che il mondo non è più il mio campo da giuoco piccolo. Nessuno è il mio dreamland. Il pericolo è sempre fuori là n che realmente devo essere sulla mia protezione. La realtà è hurtful e crudele.

"Il giorno non conclude appena felice;Molti hipcups sono accaduto sopra l'ultimo 2 ore prima che dirigerà per inserire;Il cuore e la mente non lavorano allo stesso senso;Sapendo bene che i hurts allineare ma ancora ......;"

Can't wait to finish my SIM ....

To very much i don't want to involve;
But still ....;
Heavy heart, headache; Zzzzz

4d3n... see,learn n observe;
trying v hard to find my old self;
but fail;
Switch off mode;
tired trip;

If i were to be one of them???? (good question wor!!!)

Truth is always hurting;
Well, a lamp is meant to be litted;
The cat will be out of the bag soon;
Finally says what i need to say;
Prepare for the worst;
Trying to make situation better make guess m not helping;
Sorried but that is life .... wake up the next day, life goes on, and soon everything will be forgotton, and soon episode will end. =)

TIRED OF EVERYTHING ......

We must accept finite disappointment,
but never lose infinite hope.

Martin Luther King, JR

HOPE = disappointment
Promise mend to be broken
Oblivious doesn't mean i don't know... but is just too much for me to take.
Is not that i don't know what to do or how to do, but my heart n brain just dun meet each other.

Life isn't like a box of chocolate....
Life isn't that exciting...
more heart attack then anything
ENDING SOON???

Where is my ordinary world?
When can i be there?
How can i be there?

crossroad!!!
T junction!!!
Red light will also turn green!!!
DEAD END!!!

Brokeness is an utter desperation......

Psalm 55 will tells all ......

A simple pone call n everything end?
All promises became nonsense?
Then why in the 1st place?

Sometimes you just got to leave, so that the other person will have a better life.....
but who know when is the best time?

Many many thoughts
Many many conversation
maybe is time ......
maybe should ......

Haizzzzz
JanZ is tired ...... mentally drained ...... =(

Devil is really working v v hard today; But I know HE is with me

Super busy .... vocal cord hurt... voice gone again... (when can recover??)
Rush off @ 230;
Meet up with Kris for lunch; thanks wor!!! don't like my canteen.
Home to shower... do write up.... trying to print but .... haiz
Rush to class ... print lect note
Super Zzzzz
Forget that i am suppose to meet up with my project mate, but i need to rush off...
Went up and apologise
Nice to receive SMS from Steph that the project is settled... very guilty for not doing anthing...

Conversation exchange;
Sad but what to do.
Many many thoughts running in my head .......